I feel disgusting. When I look in the mirror, I see an ugly, dumpy, awkward, fat, disgusting person. I wake up every morning and tell myself “I can make it through today without eating” and then I fail. I hate the way I look and feel. I want to be thin and pretty and feel good about myself and I don’t. I have no one to talk to. No one seems to understand or care. I see beautiful, thin women and think why can’t that be me. Why can’t I be pretty … Why can’t I be thin … Why am I so fat and ugly no matter what I do. I have no friends but at the same time, it would be easier to hide whatever my plans would be because no one is around. Does anyone else feel this way or is it just me? I feel like if I had encouragement or someone to talk to that doesn’t think I’m crazy and understands where I’m coming from and wants the same things I want (to be thin and pretty), it would be so much easier to stick to a plan and achieve what I want.